Time N Tide Wait For No One!!

I was just reading my mails that were written last year and man have things changed. There were mails about a guy and how nice he was and how I would never call him an assole or a bastard. Well, guess what I’m doing that now. LOL! There were mails between me and a friend and how he would never change and love me just the same; well he’s changed and I don’t know where the love is. There were mails where I was complaining about a friend and how the boyfriend was only imp for her. Well, right now the bf is still there, but our bond has become closer than ever. There were mails where my sister bitched to me about living so far and wanting to come home and how she hated being single. Well, now she is happily dating and not a word about coming back home (for good). Of course she misses home a hell lot.

I guess time changes a lot of things around us. It’s like the saying ‘we grow with time’, it’s so true. Last year at this time I was un-employed, happy, bored, content with life and almost with someone. A year later, I’m employed; don’t know about happy; so not bored, content yes and very much single! I have become quite mature and live healthy. Time as they say, heals all. We let time decide what’s in store for us and we also let time tell us where we stand in life. When things go wrong, we say the time is not right; when things go right others say ‘every dog has his day!’

One thing I have learnt is never regret anything you do, because it’s a waste of time and gets you no-where. If there is something you want to do or say to someone, do that right away because we don’t know what time can do to us, it’s now or never. I live by this last sentence. Does not mean I have done the right things, I have made decisions in haste, screwed up and hurt my self, but at least I saved my self the regret about not doing it. When I went to get my nose pierced, I was too scared and walked out of there but my mum said ‘It’s now or never’ I said, “F**k this shit! I am going back in”. That was a right decision because the nose pin looks nice on me. When I met a guy, he told me he’s leaving town in a month. I took a hasty decision about spending all my time with him, well I got hurt and maybe deep down feel I made the wrong choice, but I don’t regret a single moment spent with him cause he was nice, different and a breath of fresh air when I was claustrophobic.

All I’m saying is don’t waste your time in crying over a guy who left you, or fighting with friends, or feeling bad when people leave because you will never get that time back. Live life to the fullest and always love and respect your parents and elders cause you never know what time has in store for you!

Frustrating Emotions

I am so sick and tired of seeing you in my dreams,

Every night I see you there,
Sitting next to me, waiting to hold my hand,
But just when I am about to grab hold of you; I wake up!

I am so sick and tired of being your punching bag,
Every time you want to talk,
You turn to me and cry,
But when I need you to be my punching bag; you hang up!

I am so sick and tired of being a joke for you,
Every time you want to de-stress,
You make fun of me in front of everyone,
But when I try to retort you say you were pulling my leg!

I am so sick and tired of being alone,
Every time I think of it,
It makes me cry,
But when I try to move on; I’m back to square one!

I am so sick and tired of feeling this way,
Every time I want to change it,
Some thing goes wrong,
And I am back to feeling frustrated!!!

Something is not right..!! :-(

There is something not right in my life, and I don’t know what it is. My b’day was on the 21st of Septmeber and man was I depressed. I dint feel right… I dint want to celebrate, I dint want to talk to anyone. At 12 in the night, my friends came home with cake and wished me… I slept at 3:00am. I woke up to an empty house, becuz my parents were out of town and my younger sister had gone to college. The only person at home was my grandma and I had to tell her it was my b’day. She has been unwell and does not hear much, all she did was smile. I went on Facebook and saw my wall posts… I missed my older sister. I went to work, everyone wished me, my boss msgd that lunch was on her, we called for pizzas and cake. One of my client wished me and I had to tell the other one. In the afternoon I started feeling sad again. Then my parents called saying dinner in the night with them was not a good idea, so I thought since the next day was a holiday, I should take some friends out to drink. I set my plans for the night. My mom called in the evening just an hour before I leave work saying please come to a relative’s house as I needed to offer my condolences. I dint want to go becuz a) it was depressing and b) I was wearing a dress. I asked her what were they doing after, she said they had to stay back, when I asked her what about my cake which my baby sister had baked so lovingly, she said we’ll do it later. And later I had to go out, so I had an argument with her, saying its my b’day and I want to see her. Well eventually I had to do what mom says, but they come to drop me home and cut my cake. I left immediately to go out taking my younger sister along. We went to my club, had alcohol and suddenly it was time to shut down. We then clicked lots of pictures, left from there and went to the church. When I was there I met my boss and she thought I would be getting hammered somewhere but was happy to see me there. We left, went for a drive to town and then back again. My b’’day was over.

The only highlight of my day was when my older sister Chaitri called from US and sang to me over the phone, when I went to the bank to withdraw some cash and the screen flashed a happy b’day and when my younger sister Avni baked a cake for me. The only gift I got was a bag and a bouquet.

In spite of so much…. I was still depressed. I don’t know why. I wanted to cry all day long and was not at all excited about my b’day. I still don’t understand!!! Any suggestions???

It's Been A While!

Hey,

It’s been a very long time since I blogged and man I missed it!

Reasons:

1. I’ve been so stressed with work lately that I’ve not had time to breathe.
2. My best friend was here in town for a month
3. Work Load has increased
4. Missing a certain someone so much, the pain is physically unbearable now.
5. And other women problems (You know what I mean right!)

Work is going to be an on going thing, it’s going to be like this as always, but I just need to balance it out well. My friend told me I need to leave work at office and come out with them, I should be back to the same quirky and cheerful person I was.

Mithil Patel is my best friend and I love him for life, he’s like this immature, lost puppy in life and I love being with him, becuz its de-stressing. I can talk about anything under the sun with him and he still won’t listen to me, LOL! No but seriously he’s the best friend any girl can have, he gives me everything of the exact amount, not too much not too less, just PERFECT! And that’s what I like best about him. But that does not mean he is mature, he still needs help with a lot of things in life. Lol!

Work load has increased. From one client I now have 2 and technically 3, but I like it now. It’s all going in the right direction. But work and stress go hand in hand. Like I wrote earlier it needs to be balanced well.

Sometimes in life when everything is going well, from work to family to friends, you still want that special someone. I had someone who was almost perfect for me just sometime back. But life is never fair and now he’s gone and I miss him like crazy. All I wish is to see him, talk to him, hug him ONCE! But I guess this is not what God has in store for me.

Woman problems are what every girl goes through, so no comments on that! Lol

This is me for now! Let’s hope I have something better to write next time.
Till then, keep following and reading my blog!! Chao!!

what's wrong with people?

Recently I’ve come across people who comment without thinking. For eg,

1. Don’t be in denial; I’ve also been in an open relationship. Just admit that you’re his girlfriend (he’s a good friend of mine and I like someone else)
2. It’s funny how you keep making the same mistake over and over again and still don’t mind committing them. (aaa… when u don’t know the story its best not to comment, and since when did u start having such a bitchy tongue)
3. It’s surprising how you were so hard on your self over me (yea assole… so full of yourself, thank god I don’t love you)

The funny part is, I dint really get to put my point across! I mean seriously don’t they think when they talk, where did their manners go. Sometimes all I want to do is just slap them so hard on their face that they would never think of opening their mouths again. Then again dogs bark for no reason and never shut up… I feel its best to just shut your ears and move on, trust me you’re taking the high road!

!

Mitch Albom

I read this book called Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom, and I fell in love with it, after that I read ‘Five people you meet in Heaven’ by Mitch Albom. These 2 books taught me so much.
‘Tuesdays with Morrie’ is about this student who is now graduated and working, he used to have a favorite teacher in college called Morrie. After getting married he met his professor again and realized the educator is dying soon. So he started going to meet him every Tuesday. This student as it turns out was also his professor’s favorite pupil. They would sit together every Tuesday and talk for a few hours. The moral of this story was let it be today, not tomorrow. If you want to say something, say it today. If there is someone you love say it today, u never know what may happen tomorrow!
‘Five people you meet in Heaven’ is about a very old guy who dies, and he meets five people in heaven who teach him to forgive and forget. It talks about how people hurt us, but with a valid reason behind it which we fail to understand at that point. After a few years when our anger has subsided, we realize why it happened!

These books were very eye opening and taught me a lot. We as individuals never realize when the time has gone; we are so busy in ourselves that we fail to do something that we want to do. We do not realize what the other person was going through when they hurt us. Because this has been proven ‘what goes around comes back around!’

The next book I’m reading is called ‘One More Day’ by Mitch Albom. Watch out for this space!

WHY YOU SHOULD SAY SORRY!

Scientists have claimed that when a man refuses to apologize to a woman for something wrong he has done, he could put her at risk of a heart attack.
A study found that women who are starved of an apology for rude or hurtful behaviour suffer an increase in blood pressure, which can raise the risk of a heart attack or stroke.
The research also showed that those who hear a well timed "sorry" calm down more quickly, with their blood pressure returning to normal 20 percent faster.
On the other hand, a man's blood pressure takes 20 percent longer to recover after an apology - suggesting men become more worked up after hearing an admission of guilt.
Scientists at the University of Massachusetts Medical School in Worcester, US, measured the diastolic blood pressure of 29 men and 59 women throughout the experiment.
Both groups were asked individually to complete a maths test in five minutes. They were interrupted three times during the test and told angrily to hurry up.
At the end of the test, they were told: "You're obviously not good enough." Two minutes later, researchers apologised for their rudeness to half of the men and women. The women who received an apology calmed down faster, while the men became more agitated.
"Results indicate that there are potentially healthy benefits to forgiveness and apology," the Telegraph quoted one of the researchers as saying.
Diastolic blood pressure, a measure of pressure in the blood between heartbeats, can increase the chances of stroke or heart attacks if it remains high.

NOW THATS WHY I SAY ALL MEN SHOULD ALWAYS SAY SORRY!!
hahahhahahahahahaha.........