Monday, January 18, 2010

The dream run...

so on the 17th of January there was a marathon in Mumbai,and i ran for it.7 kilometers, my first ever dream run, it felt awesome. I was all pumped up from 5.30 in the morning, well i had to get to a particular start point. We started at 9 am so officially i started walking from 9.30 a lot of people had come for the 7 km run. there were so many groups, all different. some were NGO's, a group from McDonald's was running including there mascot. there was Domino's Pizza. there were people from TATA consultancy, a dance group(Shiamak Davar) also. we had to run around in the south of Mumbai near Marine lines, luckily it was near the sea so it wasn't that hot. We got done by about 11.15!!!
for me it dint really feel like i was in a marathon cuz we walked much of it but i was determined to do this so next time i can do the 21km race, its not that difficult. Since i am on a diet and work out regularly i have decided that every time i step on the treadmill i should aim to start with 5 km atleast.
so the next marathon will be next year and i definitely wanna take part in it. my parents and fitness trainers were so happy that i did it.
in all i felt so happy within, that i did it. Going there and completing it was a challenge i put for my self and seeing the spirit was amazing. the best of all this was i saw a physically challenged boy running the 21 km race and his mom and few others were helping him in the last 500 meters. there was also a little baby who had come with his mum, a lot of other people in different get ups where there.

this marathon was not just a race but also a reason for people to do something and since i've been doing nothing lately this was something i was looking forward to!!! :-D

Saturday, January 16, 2010

The Feeling of Emptiness!


It’s been 2 days since you’ve left,
The house seems silent.
From a family of 6, it’s become 4,
Feels like no one is at home anymore.

It’s been a year since you’ve left,
My life seems boring without you.
Said you’ll be back soon, but it’s already a year,
I have stopped looking and kept that place only for you.

You’re gonna leave soon,
I feel alone already,
Even though we had very little time, I let myself to be smitten and fell for you,
You say you’re not affected at all, but deep down I know, this hurts you more than me.

So many others have come and gone,
Used and left me completely lifeless,
I sit in the hope that you all will be back,
And it would be the same between us,
But seeing a few now, I know you’ve left for good.
Giving me a feeling of emptiness within.

This feeling was then,
But right now I have to keep my heart open,
Cuz if I don’t, then nobody would get the privilege of knowing me.
And I have decided, alone I am not going to be.

When you pissed me off!!!

You do this all the time,
Every time you do this it’s predictable.
You just need excuses to excuse yourself.
For you, it’s all a game.

You have traveled such a long distance,
And come after so long,
But you still don’t want to see a change.
You think everything is the same as you left it.

You need to stop doing this,
Such an attitude will only make people judge you,
You may think this is such a small thing
But for me, it means everything!!!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

i dont know anything!!!

I don’t know what I want,
I don’t know what I need,
I don’t know what I feel,
I don’t know what is right,
I don’t know what is wrong,
I don’t know what I wanna do in life,
i don’t know why he does this,
I don’t know why she says no for everything,
I don’t know why he does not give me my space,
I don’t know why I am still awake at 1.30AM,
I don’t know why I am so desperate for it,
I don’t know why it takes so much time,
I don’t know why I am sitting here,
I don’t know why my phone doesn’t stop ringing,
I don’t know why I am still unemployed,
I don’t know if I should be studying,
I don’t know what name is good,
I don’t know if I should be getting out,
I don’t know if I want her to go,
I don’t know what they want from me,
I don’t understand them,
I don’t understand myself!!!