WHO AM I?

I am someone who is not real.
I am what you want me to be.
I have no dreams of my own…you gave them to me.
I have no life, I live for you.
I have no feelings, I feel what u want me to feel.
I love when you ask me for it.
I care when you want me to.
I laugh when u tell me to.
I cry when u make me.
I am nothing but a TOY…

How long am I going to take it for?
When will I run out of patience?
When will I start to live for myself?
When will I make myself a priority?
When will I make my own decisions?
Why am I scared of what you think?
Why do I depend on you?
When will I stop being a TOY….?

It has to be now or never…
I have to take a stand in life…
I do not have to be scared of you anymore….
I should not be scared to walk over you cuz that’s what you did to me….
I have to do this today not tomorrow…
Someday I will be glad I did this…
This is going to hurt…. But I have to let go...
I cannot and will not be a FUCKING TOY ANYMORE….!!!

EXPECTING AND GIVING...!!!

Expectations can make or break a person...
If u expect more and things don’t happen that way, they you’re broken...
If u don’t expect and lots of things happen, then you’re made...
Even the measurement of expectations matter...
There are high expectations and low expectations...
Parents have high expectations from their children to get good marks or choose a wise carrier.
Friends have expectations in being there for each other and not back stab.
Lovers have expectations to be loved more them the ex and get more.
Old people have expectations from young people who always take care of them.
Young people have expectations from elders to understand them even if they wanna go to a night club.
Kids have expectations from parents to buy them that doll or car, their friends have.
Best friends have expectations from the other to understand when they’re going through a rough patch with their lovers.
Best friends have expectations from the other to go on listening to them bout the same things 10 times.

THERE IS A VERY THIN LINE BETWEEN GIVING AND EXPECTING....
WHEN U GIVE... U WANNA TAKE..TAKING MEANS EXPECTING....
You give good marks to your parents, you expect a gift or a reward.
You give trust to your friends expecting the same back.
You give more love to your lovers expecting more love back.
You have given a lot when ur young... So you expect to be taken care of when you’re old.
You give by working at home, expecting permission to go to a night club.
You give by behaving yourself, expecting that doll or car.
You give a shoulder to cry on, expecting the same from your best friend.
You give a listening ear, expecting the same when you wanna talk.

LIFE IS ALL ABOUT GIVING AND EXPECTING….
YOU JUST NEED TO KNOW THE RIGHT MEASUREMENT OF EACH...!!!

my feelings on Nov 11th, 2009.

why are goodbye's so hard??
why do we have to say goodbye??
what good is there in saying bye???
will we forget each other???
NO....NEVER..........
then why a good bye????

People always leave...
no one is forever....
they come, give you love....a few laughs, some good memories, some advice and they leave....
does God select people for this job???
what right does he have to play with our hearts and mind???
why does he do this...???
so we learn to be alone???
but why send people when we have to be alone...we are better off alone....we can take care of oursleves....we dont need guests!!!
I am permanent, my heart is permanent, my mind is permanent...why screw with it???
why change for these people when they'r eventually going to leave????


u dont have the right to know me...
u dont have the right to look at me with sympathy...
u dont have the right to make me laugh...smile...
u dont have the right to give me love...care for me....give me....
u dont have the right to give me expectations..... hopes...
u dont have the right to take it away from me....
u dont have the right to give me memories....
u dont have the right to make me sad and cry....
U DONT...............!!!!

we'r strong

As babies when we learnt to walk, we fell.... but still stood up.
as kids when we learnt to ride, we lost our balance... but still rode.
as children when we learnt to study, we failed.... but still passed.
as teenagers when we fell in love, our hearts were broken...but we never lost hope on love.
as friends we meet a lot of people, they leave...but we still made new friends.
as employees we worked, we got fired...but still looked for a another job.
as daughters we learnt to cook, we burnt it...but still ate.
as girls our hearts were broken, we got depressed...but snapped out of it.
as human beings we made decisions, some went wrong....but we moved on.

its ok to......

its ok to walk out of ur way to help ppl...
its ok to do something u know u'll never get to do...
its ok to live in a different world sometimes........
its ok to screw up....
its ok to love....
its ok to feel....
its ok to look into the eyes........
its ok to shed a few tears....
its ok to say sorry...
its ok to feel bad....
its ok to want freedom from ur usual self....
its ok to make mistakes.......
its ok to fail....
its ok to be unemployed...
its ok to be broke...
its ok to expect.......
its ok to feel fear...
its ok to be selfish.....
its ok to want....
its ok to have a heart break....
its ok to have thoughts of dying.....
its ok to think....

its ok to..... cuz if not then ur not living your life well...........